12 months later... May24, 2025

Thinking things will go one way and then they go even a different way that you imagined. It is life affirming yet sometimes too much to deal with all at once.

That has been my 48th year.

Last year I was moving and exercising and on top of the world. And so much changed in my heart and soul last year.

I am waking up in rural small town in NC. Looking out at a magical Fairy Forest. Sitting in my pajamas in my chosen sisters' house. I feel revived being here. Ready to take on the world again.

Through injuries and now menopause hitting, life has been confusing and challenging. Then add in a series of work changes that had me feeling for a few months and chaos in my brain, heart, and soul really grabbed me by the throat to remind me control is just an illusion.

I am looking towards the future. I cannot change yesterday, but I can be who my younger self would be proud of.

I have been reflecting on what it is I want to do for my Next. Even have a few irons in the fire of change.

What I truly want to do is help others, talk about spirit, and help others connect with spirit. Write words that help others heal. Share who Chanda is with the world. Or at least those that want to listen. That is the journey I am choosing from now on.

I am choosing me, so I can be there for you.

Love Always,

Chanda